I have had a dark cloud of crankiness over my head ever since I came home from church on Sunday. I had some awfully deep insight as I sat in class Tuesday evening. I am not certain if I can write it down and have it make sense, but just know it makes sense in my brain.
Abraham was asked to sacrifice his son Isaac. I would imagine that would be somewhat similar to how I have been feeling like God looked into my heart, saw my worst fear and made it a reality. Abraham had to trust God and place Isaac on that altar and then leave the rest in God's hands, no matter what the outcome. He had to trust that God's promises would be fulfilled, and trust that God loved Isaac as much as he did. Why is it so hard for me to trust God? By comparing myself to Abraham and laying all the hurts and fears on the altar and trusting that no matter what God loves me and my family is what I need to do.
I also learned that God isn't strengthening me to carry the whole burden all at once. He strengthens me from day to day. Sometimes from moment to moment.
I love this! It makes me think about how my life has gone in the last 21 years. When I got married, I would never have been able to see all of the joy and growth that has come from the trials we have endured...I think the trials would have scared the pants off me and I would have ran the other way screaming! But as I look at the blessings I would have given up if I had ran away...I am thankful that my heavenly Father had a better plan for me than the simple life I had imagined. I think I will try to remember how great His track record is...and work on TRUST. Thank you for sharing!
ReplyDeleteI have been trying to understand the difference between the trials we put on ourselves through sin and rebellion, and the trials The Lord tests us with. I also don't understand the trials an innocent person has to endure at the hands of a person who sins. I do however, believe that no matter what trials I must endure, The Lord will provide a way back to Him. I know He loves me and wants me to be happy, and that the only way to pure joy is by trusting that He loves me. I appreciate the thought of Him strengthening me to carry what I can carry from day to day, and not all of it at once. Nice. I also love the idea of Him having a great track record. I need to remember to have more confidence in Him, and not forget that He has always had confidence in me.
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